the messy unassured wide open anything can happen process.
to showing up into the room day after day.
to doing it right.
bright white glows. google docs. unfinished readings. collages. to good ideas. to the scratches that follow falls. to sparks that lead nowhere. unraveling.
to missteps
to glorious mistakes
to
when you don't wanna do it
but
you've done it day in and day out so you do it anyway.
this is an i see you to the process
teaching me the timbers of my own voice
holding me through the wild wreckages.
the bare rebuildings.
this is to throwing it alllll
away
crumbled paper
to the plateau
play more. eat your breakfast so you are not lightheaded.
hey hamstrings. i feel you.
hey spine. curve alittle more today
the process of moving even when confused. trust among darkness' void.
just trust.
now trust alittle more.
sagged bags of books. crumpled brown paper. silent rooms. mason jars of slushing tea. full journals. warm ups that turn into jam sessions. to naps. to snacks. to dirty yoga mats.
this is to the mornings at links. the quiet afternoons with the coffee table pulled to the side. stifled leaps in the living room. pink sunsets and hissing radiators warming the attic at SSCAC.
1. why do you return to your process/practice?
2. what has to be done in order for you to begin your process
